i'm not one for sharing my life experiences, or hugging. touching other people weirds me out just a little bit.
but all of a sudden, about two hours ago, i started panicking, and i started to cry. i was having a panic about my life. so i called my therapist who literally saved my life in college (yes, we still talk on the phone every few months or so) and he told me to write it down.
so here goes.
i'd like to say that my life is what i want, but it's not. I know what I want, but I can't seem to grab it. And if I do get it, it isn't mine for very long. What I would like is to live with someone who is nice to me, cares for me, isn't my parent or my sibling, and wants to spend time with me. I want a good job, a nice place, a decent car (i'm thinking a ford here), and just enough money to save some but still go to whole foods and drop a ton of cash on fruits that would have cost me half as much at my local grocery.
but what i got was something different. not worse, nor better. just different.
so this might be a new adventure, or i simply may write this and nothing else until my next crisis (turning 30!). stay tuned?!
